My marriage is constantly on my mind. What I continue to fail at in regards towards Nathan, what could be better, what I’m frustrated about, what’s good, and the list goes on. Nathan and I both have large opinions and strong wills which can sometimes lead to tumultuous interactions. 3 years and a baby later, I find myself continuing to mess up the great metaphor that God gave us for marriage, Christ and the Church. Most of my life revolves around my marriage. Liam is a product of our marriage. Our finances are combined and must be managed mutually because we agreed to be in this until death do us part. Even my faith and ability to walk well is largely affected by my relationship with Nathan. You get the point. It’s often on my mind.
This morning in church as we celebrated communion, I bowed my head and began my confessions. And utmost in my mind was my selfishness that so often rears its ugly head in my relationship with Nathan. And then it came to me. Like a blurred image suddenly made clear. What if I always assumed the best of Nathan? What if I assumed in every conversation, every action, and every gesture toward me from my husband was done with the very best intentions and motives. How much would my marriage be different.? How much more tenderness would enter our home? How much less would I be brought so instantly to anger? It seems so easy, yet so unattainable. But I’m going to tie it a shot. Wish me luck.
I need to take on this same attitude….especially because my first thought was that there was no way I could or even wanted to do that.
I’m just like you when it comes to blogging. I have so many posts in my head that I’m going to try for everyday. It won’t happen, but I’ll give it my best shot.
And… Liam is so cute, Jess!!! So, so cute!!! My goodness!!